Plus-Sized Pin Up

Week 1, version 2

Bust: 49.5
Chest: 46
Waist: 48
Hips: 53.5
Thighs: 26
Arms: 16
Weight: 260

My numbers have come down! I messed up my waist measurement. According to the measurements for today, it has added inches. However, my pants have been sitting looser around the waist, so I think I must have done something wrong *shrug* Part of my brain is upset about the 10lbs. of weight, but I remind myself that muscle is heavier than fat. Since my measurements have come down, I think that is more telling of my progress than the scale.

w00t moment of the day (Peak Moment): I DID 20 CONTINUOUS MINUTES ON THE ELLIPTICAL MACHINE!! It was awesome! I also was able to get it at a higher intensity. I'm still not shredding the way some of the girls and guys are, but this is awesome for me! Just think, at the beginning of August, I could barely push myself for 5 minutes! The treadmill was a little easier today. Even though I am only pounding away 10 minutes on it, the past couple have weeks felt as though I really, really, really had to push myself. But today came out super easily. LoL, I have to say that Lady Gaga does help! When I'm dragging, I turn on Just Dance or Bad Romance and get a super boost of energy! Kind of like my own power drink ^_~

I admit that breakfast today was bad (McDonald's bacon, egg, and cheese biscuit and OJ). When we were at the store last night, we forgot to get more cheerios. I thought about just skipping and eating a slice of cheese when I got home. Really, with how much I did, that didn't sound like a good idea. Oh well, OJ is yummy and good :9

But I had a point with the admission. After I got my stuff at the drive-through, the lady at the window stopped me to comment on my tattoo! She kept going on about how pretty it was, that the Cheshire Cat reminded her of another cartoon cat, the colours were awesome, etc. I don't mean to toot my own horn . . . Ah, screw it, I will! Toot! Toot! ^_^

Today I feel good. Tired from the workout, but really energized. When I woke up this morning, it was all I could do to pull myself out of bed. Haha, you would never know it now ^__^ Hopefully, when I call jobs back, I will hear good news!

I'm been reading Never Say Diet on and off last night and today. I agree that a lifestyle changes must first come from our way of thinking about things and acceptance. However, while reading, I discovered a few landmines in her thought process. She makes it clear that her motivating factor was based on poor self-image and mind-reading. I have poor self-image, but I know that it won't change when/if I lose weight. I am who I am, with weight or without. And, after thinking about it, my self-image and self-esteem come from something more internal. The weight issue is just adding fuel to the fire.

She mentioned that she didn't like the way people looked at her. Well, how does she know? I don't know about her, but I cannot read peoples' mind. She mentions this as a part of losing control, which she uses as another huge basis for losing weight on her part (w/ diets you just kind of give up and do what they tell you to). But, you know what? I cannot control other people. The only person I can control is myself. It it my choice to look around and interpret everything as negative. Yes, I am guilty of it, but other people do not do it to me. And, if they are thinking bad thoughts, so what? I can either give them/negative feelings power in my life, or I can take charge and refuse to listen to the lies I tell myself. Losing weight/changing your lifestyle should never be about what you perceive others think of you. That is not healthy!

Another pet peeve, she talks about how diets don't work when the force you to eat things you hate. I can accept that; however, she then goes on to discuss how she did not allow anything she liked to enter her mouth. I understand, to a point. Changing your lifestyle and eating habits is not about denial! A balance needs to be made. Okay, you like to eat a slice of cheese cake once in a while. So what? Continued denial will only cause you to want it more. *shrug*

She decided to look at food as being bad. That turned into saying that food was not supposed to be fun; it was only necessary as fuel. Okay, okay, I can see the logic in that. But is food itself really the enemy? Why we chose to not accept our own issues (overeating, binging, etc.) and personify food by projecting these human traits on it? Does it really make weight loss that much better? Blaming something else instead of understanding your part doesn't allow change.

*shrug* These are my thoughts on the what I've read so far. I like the companion book, but I'm not going to follow it to a T. Adding stuff on the stability ball is cool, continue upping my time/intensity on the elliptical machine is good, but I want to stick with the stuff the PT told me to concentrate on. Also, I'm going to take everything at face value. She just provides different ideas and options to follow. Keeping a food journal and monitoring your physical activities are a good thing to keep you focused and accountable.

In less thoughtful news, I really don't want to got to the gym tomorrow! I got over half my tattoo coloured (he wants to do another sitting on Nov. 6), and it HURTS! Just doing simple movements really hurts. It feels bruised, tight, etc. Well, that means I need to be easier on my arm related exercises.

I feel a bit discouraged, but I'm trying to tell myself that everything will work out.

After putting together the menu for next week and writing up a shopping list, my husband looked at it and was concerned about the amount of money we might be spending. After buying our house last September, money is a little tight. I'm hoping that we can both sit down with the menu and find alternative items. Plus, as long as it isn't things like ketchup, I don't have issues buying generic. That will cut down the cost.

Well, I need to think positive! Things will work out!

On the up and up, it turns out that my husband's employer will reimburse us for half of the gym membership! And, I must have missed it, I can pay monthly! That way I don't have to pay a lump sum of $300+. Some of this is really making me encouraged about God's support.

I've been sitting here drawing up tattoo ideas. Sheesh, I am such an ink lush! After watching The Runaways, I was reminded of my childhood. I grew up singing Cherry Bomb at the top of my lungs in defiance to my parents ^_~ It would rock if Angel and I got ankle cherry bomb tattoos. I've been working on some ideas: a cherry with a fuse, incorporating the cherry in "cherry bomb," adding leaves to the fuse, pin up girl, etc. Aside from doodling in class, I haven't picked up a pencil to draw something in a LONG time. It feels good!

Today was a pilates morning. Juneau wouldn't stay outside, so it was more stressful. Being a puppy, she wanted to check things out, walk all over my mat, get into my face while I was working on the ground, etc. I spent a lot of time pushing her away. Hmm, it must be a different form of pilates: Dog Pilates! ^_~

Man, I feel good after a shower. I actually took the time to put on make-up this morning. Today feels like a good day!

Oh, happy P.O.E.T.S. day!

Tomorrow, CHEST TATTOO!!!! *happy white girl dance*

Angel and I went up to Riverton to place her mother's grave stone. We sat around with the women folk and watched the men sweat and get dirty. It was fun just shooting the breeze with her family and friends. We had awesome tattoo conversation, which ended in a tattoo show-and-tell :)

After everything was said and done, her family and I had dinner at the local Italian restaurant. Those were some of the best calzones I have ever eaten. Yum! I had leftovers for breakfast and now my acid is flaring up again :(

We were planning on getting my chest piece done, but I never got a hold of the shop yesterday. The soonest they can get me in is Saturday @ 4pm. I really want Angel to come, but she has to head back to work tomorrow. But my hubby has never been with me to get ink, so it will be an interesting experience. I'm thinking that the spicy-ness (aka pain) might be a bit more than my full shoulder tattoo. Meh, I sat for my shoulder for 2.5hrs, so I can handle the chest piece. I'll post pictures when I get it done.

Off to forage for food.