Plus-Sized Pin Up

I should be saying good-bye to week 4 and heading into week 5. Well, it's not happening. I didn't end up finishing out my week 4 on Friday. After an unwanted adventure the previous night, I was left with zero energy. Needless to say, I slept in. Man, did I need it! Then last night, I ended the evening with a migraine from hell! Usually I'm not too light sensitive when I get them, but last night was awful! Several hours after taking Advil, drinking caffeine, and resting, I felt like I had been beat up!

Slipping into a hot bath was a needed retreat. However, instead of snuggling into bed and going to sleep, I got out feeling horribly nauseous. Hubby brought me some pomegranate 7Up to calm my stomach. I decided not to take my medication and sipped the 7Up until my stomach was calm enough to go to sleep.

I don't think I slept well. It was really restless, and it felt as though I woke up several times throughout the night. When my alarm went off this morning, I found that I had horrible night sweats as though I was running a fever. I was also extremely chilled. However, I felt fine. When I got up to get ready for the gym, I found that my bowels (stomach, intestines, etc.) were feeling iffy. It seemed like a good idea to stay home. *sigh* After trying to crawl back into bed twice and being jolted out by a whining dog, I have decided to quit. I'm planning on curling up into a warm blanket on the couch, so I can deal with the dog. Hopefully I'll end up getting more rest.

The weird thing is I don't necessarily feel sick. Yeah I'm chilled and my bowels don't feel good, but it seems to be without the feeling of being sick. It's weird. Hubby had some lower intestinal issues last week without feeling sick, so I wonder if I ended up getting it. *shrug* Who knows. Either way, I'm gonna jump into the last half of week 4 on Wednesday -- provided I feel better -- and start week 5 next week. I'm trying to convince myself not to feel guilty about skipping the gym. My body is just telling me to rest. If I push myself, I'll only end up hurting myself in the long run.

Anyways, I'm going to tuck myself into some warm blankets, snuggle down with a book, and try to feel better.

I couldn't be happier for the weekend to arrive. It might be the change in my workout, but I am totally exhausted. I'm sitting her practically holding my eyes open. I hate to do it, but I'm tempted to put Juneau up, take a bath w/ book, and take an afternoon-long nap.

Over the last two days, two of my bras broke -- yes, once a day. I'm not sure what happened. They both felt nice and sturdy, but . . . Last night when I leaned forward to grab something, the under wire just snapped! Now all I'm left with is a nice slut-red one! I like it, but it doesn't really work with everything. I'm trying to convince my hubby that we need to drive down to Denver tomorrow and get two more. At this point, he doesn't seem too keen on the idea. But I will not give up!

*blink* I think I need to wander off to my bed. I hate leaving Juneau in the crate so long. I'm tempted to trust her out by herself. If I stay out here, she won't have an issue. She might get upset if I go into the bedroom w/o her. Honestly, I don't want anymore dog-cat drama. *grumble* I am convinced that Dizzy doesn't have the sense God gave a rock!

Oh, on a side note, I did 10 straight min. on the elliptical this morning! I was even trying to work at a higher pace then normal. Yay me!!

One of the cycling shops is hiring. They are asking people to bring their resumes in person. I've been in the bathroom trying to figure out my make up. I want it to be appropriate, but not completely boring. Usually, I like to wearing crazy colours and whatnot. That will not work. We ran by Wal*Mart to pick up some light pinkish lipstick, gloss, and blush. The stuff I have is a little too much. I probably could have just gone with gloss, but . . . *shrug*

Anyways, one look is kind of like a played down peach. It has some light pink on the lid (really muted), coral on the outer half, a taupe colour in the crease, and a darker brown for the outer-v. I also added brown gel liner and mascara for a little definition. The other look has a lighter colour on the lid (kind of like a colour that would be used as a brow highlight), a taupe in the crease, and a darker colour in the outer-v. It also has brown gel-liner and a little mascara. Oh yeah, both eyes have a little wing on the end and brown shadow swept under the eyes.

On my lips, I used a light pink/light nude and LIGHT pink blush. Both of those are awesome, and I'm planning on using those. However, I'm torn about the eyes! I would do an awesome purple/blue, but I have a feeling that it wouldn't go over the best. Anyways, any suggestions are appreciated!!

My other issue deals with my chest tattoo. The only really nice shirts I have are lower neckline. I'm worried about the tattoo hindering my chances at a job. But I tell myself, if I am meant to have this job, it won't matter if they see the tattoo.

LoL, I'm not even sure if I will get the job. I'm just turning in a resume. But I don't want to hurt my chances. With the hours, the job might be a pain, but it shouldn't be open much later than 6pm. That would work well with hubby's hours. Either way, please keep me in prayer. God is in control, and I want to have the job that is best for me. If it isn't this one, let me know.

Hubby is going to the doctor tomorrow. He has had some serious numbness on the outer left side of his left hand. It doesn't appear to be attached to anything -- meaning, it is not extending up his arm. It stops shortly after his palm/upper wrist. This has been going on for some time. He has been in and out of the doctor and taking anti-inflammatory medicine in case it is some swelling further up. It hasn't made too much of a difference. The doctor is afraid that it could be MS. Hubby might be headed to an MRI. We've been praying against MS, but we would like to know what is going on. Please keep this is your prayers and thoughts.

**hugs**

The healthy stuffed peppers are in the oven. They should be done in 45-50min. While filling them, I sampled some of the stuffings, yummy! Nom nom nom ^____^ I cannot wait for dinner!! Since the innards tasted lovely, they will definitely be added to the success menu!

Tomorrow or Friday, hubby is making his homemade spaghetti sauce. I don't know the caloric intake, but he makes it from scratch. Okay, well, he uses some no-salt added tomato sauce, so it shouldn't be too high. Does anyone have any low-calorie garlic bread recipes? Spaghetti isn't complete without the garlic bread and salad.

I am totally being spoiled this week with some awesome recipes!! Yay!!!

On Monday, I made this yummy casserole. It honestly made me thing of homemade rice-a-roni dish. When we were sitting down to eat it, hubby mentioned that it would be a good filling for stuffed peppers. Now I have two recipes!!

Wow! Some of the exercises were easier today, but a lot of them got harder. Some of the stability ball stretches were a lot harder this time. I'm not sure why. But, hey, I got it done!

While on the treadmill at the end, I was just losing steam . . . Fast! I was concentrating on finish my fast walk @ 10min, but it was getting harder and harder. During the last few minutes, Lady Gaga Bad Romance came up on my iPod. Whatever people say about her, those songs are high energy. It gave me the last umf to finish.

When I was done, I shimmied into my swimsuit. Being hot and sweaty made the quite a feat! Since I was still over heated, I jumped into the pool. It was nice. I walked around a little bit and started the lazy river. But, being who I am, I was getting self-conscience just being there. It felt as though the lifeguard was watching me the whole time, but, really, I was the only one in the pool, so . . . He was sitting right by the lazy river. I got so uncomfortable that I stopped. Arg! I'm so annoyed at myself. After that, I made my way to the whirlpool! Ahhhhhh . . . that was lovely! The water was the perfect temperature. Sadly, when I got out, I felt more wasted than I usually do. However, it was a nice end to my workout!

I will probably be bad again for lunch. I didn't get my ass together and go shopping earlier in the week; we have no food for lunch. However, I do have stuffed peppers planned for dinner! Yum!

Ug, I need to take a shower, but my energy has disappeared :(

Pilates was a little slower this morning. Luckily Juneau was more interested in staying outside. It was nice not to fight her off the mat, out of my face, etc. while concentrating on my movements/video. Unfortunately, I didn't take her out for her walk. Doing pilates in the morning moved the walk to the afternoon. Well, I laid down for an hour nap at 2pm and woke up at 4!

We finally went by the Zumba class this evening. I was afraid that I would too behind. But, not to be mean, a lot of the people were at a low-level, so I wouldn't feel uncomfortable. Watching them go through the dances were also encouraging. They kept plugging along and enjoyed every minute of it! We haven't decided if we are going to start going every week. Since hubby is already in ballet, it might be too much of a commitment for him. We'll see.

My swimsuit is agitating in the washing machine. I accidentally let it sit out for awhile, and my stupid cat (yes, one . . . and I know who it is -- shes doesn't have the sense God gave a rock!) decided to use it as her own persona litter box!! The damn thing reeked of musty cat pee!!! Arg! I put it into a hot water washing cycle. I'm considering putting it through another cycle, but I don't want to stay up so late . . .

Tomorrow will be a full week working at the rec center!! Yay!! I'm going to work on all the exercises the PT showed me. I'm pumped! And, since the tattoo has been healing for 3 weeks, I can SOAK in the whirlpool!! I'm usually pretty hot after the hard workout, so I might cool down in the lazy river before hitting the whirlpool. The lazy river has a kind of current that you can walk against.

On a more nerdy note, the rest of the Dark Ivory series came in the mail today! Of course, I sat down a finished the series before much of anything. HeeHee, I am such a nerd. Comics/graphic novels = <3

The zombie has returned again.

Working with the personal trainer was a lot better than I thought. Doing something completely different always makes me anxious. But, since this process about changing myself, the new me can handle anything ^_~ Roar!

The personal trainer wanted me to focus in aerobics, which I figured. We walked around the track several times keeping our pace up. My muscle didn't want to wake up. My calf muscles were really cramping and painful. I'm not sure why. I usually do a hard intensity on the treadmill *shrug* Anyways, he showed me a lot of stretches and workouts on the stability ball. I forgot that it was low intensity, but it really worked my muscles! After that, we worked on the weights. He wants me working with lower weights and higher reps. It was awesome to get back on the machines! It has been awhile! We ended the session by walking on the treadmill. It really didn't challenge me, because I do inclines and stuff on my own. But it was still pretty cool.

He even suffers from sports-induced asthma. He confirmed my believe: asthma will get better the with more exercise and strengthening the lungs. He has almost fully recovered from his asthma. Unless he is really, really pushing himself, he doesn't need his rescue inhaler. But, interestingly enough, while I've been out of breath, I haven't felt the need to use my inhaler. Yay!

My moment of humility: When we were working on the bar pull-down, I totally fell backwards over the seat! *^_^*

Working out this way will definitely show progress! I was kind of annoyed that he believed healthy and in shape meant being skinny. It's not true, but I figured he was think that.

Juneau wants to play, but I am too tired . . . But its a hurt-so-good! I wish I brought my swimming suit! The whirlpool would be so nice! Sadly, our hot tub is not heated. All I would have to do is throw Juneau out and soak . . . . Ahhhhh

I have my appointment set up with the personal trainer. It is set for 10:30 tomorrow morning. He is a nice guy. I see him every morning I go in. This is an awesome opportunity, but I'm feeling really nervous and self-conscience. When I think about it, I'm not sure. Something about it means that I have to come clean and accept the fact that this is where I am. From a previous post, I said that I never feel fat. It takes seeing myself in the mirror or something else before I feel that way. I already own the truth. I know that I need to be healthy, but . . . I don't know. Keep me in your thoughts, guys! Thanks ^_~

We took Juneau to the park this afternoon. It was a big dog thing down there. We got her chipped. I was afraid it would hurt her, but she was only focused on the food they had. After wards, we got her a cup full of dog ice cream. Man, she really inhaled it! We met another husky owner. She was 2 years-old and as small as Juneau. It was weird. But her colouring was awesome! Juneau has been really good about being around other huskies, but she freaked out with this little girl. Hubby and I think the run-in with the Malamute really set her back on how she interacts with other dogs. She was doing really, really well, but . . . Arg!

Journey group was tonight. Nate brought some elk for kabobs (I don't like wild meat, so . . . Hubby loved it). They made these amazing potatoes on the grill! They were cut fry-style and marinated in olive oil a lots of herbs. Yummy! Due to my wild meat issues, I had to grab dinner on the way home. I'm definitely cracking down on myself tomorrow. I need to start making better decisions on the weekends!

*sigh* I need to head to the store tomorrow for the week. I have a tentative idea of what we're eating, and we don't need to pick up too much. Hubby is making his homemade spaghetti this week. I don't know calorie intake, but it is all from scratch. Nom nom nom!!

Well, I'm being lazy and watching the first disc of Sons of Anarchy.