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**Jumps up and down** I was able to jog this morning!! Granted, it wasn't very long, but I did it!

I also added some new leg weight-machines into the mix. Man, even during cool down/stretching, it was burning! I think being winded was my asthma acting up, but it didn't cause too much of an issue. Even after relaxing in the bathtub and a nap, my legs just don't want to work. When I stand up, my legs complain: "Why?!" LoL

Today is my birthday. Hubby and I are heading to the cheap seats to watch the Town. After that, we're heading to Applebee's with a gift card from my in-laws. And, yes, I am getting a mucho mudslide. In the bigger picture, I might have 2-3/yr. I'm not a big drinker.

Since my sink is now working, I got a load of dishes into the dishwater. Even putting in one load, I feel so much better ^_^

Well, off to put feet up and play around with Gimp ^__^

Okay, I admit it. I have been absent for quite some time. Any excuses or reasons? Not really. I think I've just been burnt out on everything. I've been sick, looking for work, watching Avatar: The Last Airbender on Netflix, reading, and playing around with my resume and writing endless cover letters. I don't know. I think I'm bored with the computer. In essence, life has been happening. Sometimes it is really sneaky and jumps in front of you.

I haven't kept up with my smart eating. I have still been making a lot of the lower calorie food, but I haven't practiced my good eating habits outside of that. Haha, I say this while I am drinking a Starbuck's frappacino. Even though I've kind of flopped there, the gym is still in full force. However, this weekend I came down with a cold and missed Monday's gym time. Walking around Hastings on Sunday, I discovered that it was really causing my asthma to act up. I was panting, having a hard time breathing, lightheadedness, etc. So when Wednesday rolled around, I decided hitting the cardio as hard as normal was a bad idea. Jumped on the recumbent bike for awhile (reading was nice a relaxing while peddling away) and concluded with stretches.

After this afternoon, I've had two job interviews. Both at the same location. One was working for janitorial and the other was student financial aide. The janitorial position could take approximately 6 weeks to get a call back. The other job will let me know ont he week of the 15th if I am called back for a second interview. This latest interview felt as though it went pretty well. Haha, I even outdressed the people who worked there! That has got to count for something ^_~

I would much rather work with financial services. It would be less demanding due to the hours -- *ahem* no night hours.

Aside from that, I have a TON of applications out there and received no call-backs. Student loan payments start in Feb. I'm nervous.

Ug, this is a recap of the previous post. Only minor updates. My life is boring. I've been unmotivated to do much. Looking for work, reading, watching TV, and crocheting a baby blanket for my niece have taken up my time. It doesn't feel this way, but it seems as though I am stuck in a rut. And the worst part: I really don't give a damn.

That reminds me! I need to turn in two applciations to the workforce center and take the typing test. Hopefully something good will come from either the student finacial aide position or the two with the city/county I'm turning in tomorrow. *crosses fingers*

It's been awhile. The internet really hasn't held any interest lately. I've been primarily working on cleaning my house, filling out job applications, and reading. LoL, I got through about 3-4 books in about 2 weeks! Yes, I am that nerdy!

I am still pounding away at the gym. It has been a little hard coming back after being so sick, but I've been able to rise to the challenge. My food intake kind of spiraled out of control after being so sick. I know I need to get back to eating correctly, but $$$ might not allow that. Since I don't have a job, $$$ has gotten really, really tight. We relied too much on a credit card to bail us out every month, and now we've maxed it. I feel so ashamed to even admit it, but it's the truth. *sigh* We might have to return to a diet of boxed macaroni. I'm hoping that we can actually sit down and start making a budget again. Hopefully things won't look quite so bleak.

In less serious news, I got called in for a job interview!!! I applied to work as a custodian at WyoTech, and I got a call back this morning! It is fully benefited and full-time. I've worked as a custodian before, so it isn't new territory. The draw back is the hours are 10pm - 6am. I've never worked a night shift. I figure I can sleep while hubby is at work and spend the evening w/ him before I head in at 10pm. *shrug* I don't know. Either way, I'm seriously thinking about taking the job on the spot -- if they want me that is. It pays nice and the benefits will cut some of our expenses and cover the $500+/mo payment on my student loans.

Angel and my brother have been here all weekend. Angel came to celebrate her birthday with us, so my brother drove up from Colorado. It was a lot of fun. My brother decided to leave around 11:30 last night. It looked as though it was going to start raining/snowing, so we wanted to go over the pass on 80 before anything hit. I guess he hit a bad patch for about 10 minutes. Aside from that, the drive was uneventful. Angel is leaving this afternoon. We're planning on heading out and renting a new Batman cartoon and chilling before she leaves. It was a freaking awesome weekend, but I'm glad to start back into normal life.

It is amazing how much home feels like home.

On Friday, Angel drove down of a visit. We went to the rec center for some swimming and water slide fun. After that, I got out my stage make-up and turned her into a zombie for the premier of Resident Evil: Afterlife.

The next morning, we left for Greeley and left Juneau at his house. We promptly ran over to Fort Collins as fast as we could, shoveled food down our throat, went to get Angel's tattoo (her appointment was 20min late), and waited for my colour. After finally getting her new ink and touch-up done, I was able to get into Diego's chair. I mentioned some weird bumpy parts of the tattoo, he looked over it and decided that it was still healing. No colouring. I go back in a week or two. It was sad since the trip was planned around it. *shrug* Either way, our traditional gelato-after-tattoo wasn't an option due to an October Fest in old town. But we did find an awesome, homemade ice cream place. We finally got our asses in gear and got back to my brother's house to check on Juneau. His roomie had let her out to be around his dogs. They are big German Shepherds, so I was afraid she would freak out. His youngest bitch was very, very patient and gentle with her. It was the best weekend she ever had! She was so happy! When we go home, she kind of collapsed. She didn't even get up when the front door was opened!!!!

Even though this was another bad weekends food wise, when I tightened my belt, it was on the lowest hole and felt as though it could go tighter without an issue!! When I got the belt, I couldn't have it that low without a lot of smooshing! Every time I check my weight, it has been maintaining and my measurements appear to be the same. I am taking this as a sign! Even after stuffing myself on a Denver omelet before church, eating more than I should at On The Border, and grabbing a chiller and the Human Bean, my belt still could have gone tighter with room too spare! Booya!

While visiting bro, he introduced my to Bullshit with Pen and Teller. It was awesome! He was watching it streaming from Netflicks. I'm going to have to get on a find how many episodes they have available online.

Needless to say, it is good to be home. I wish Angel could have gotten more days off, but I'm happy to have the house to myself. It is hard to really feel at home when entertaining company. If you read this, Angel, I still love you visiting me, and I still wish you could have stayed longer!!!

Hubby is in bed early this evening. Either from lack of sleep or a bug, he isn't feeling well. I'm hoping it's lack of sleep, because I don't want to catch anything!

I'm wasted. The though of going into the rec center for a workout tomorrow really makes me feel . . . ug! I cannot give myself an excuse to get out of it. If I even do that once, I will get back into the habit of not going. This is not an option. A hot bath and a little extra sleep should help me shake this off.

No change on the weight front. I'm feeling a little sad about it. However, I'm not in this for the numbers on the scale. My goal is to become healthier, and I really think I'm getting there. My eating this week has not been the best, but I have kept up my physical activity. Haha, even though I am still a very sedate person, my energy level is going up after each session on the gym! I come in feeling exhausted and worn out, and I leave feeling energized, refreshed, and awake! All the scale is telling me is that I'm maintaining and not gaining. Plus, I know I am gaining muscle, so that will add weight. I also looked at my measurements. In my bust and hips area, it looks as though I lost of inches. However, I realized that I wasn't wearing my bra, and I was during the previous measurements. That doesn't work :P My waist line is saying I added a couple inches :( If I think about retaking them, I'll add the updated measurements sometime this afternoon.

Even though I didn't eat the best, I had a larger intake of water yesterday. For some reason, I haven't been feeling thirsty. When I feel hungry, it doesn't feel the same, so . . . *shrug*

Juneau killed hubby's computer the other night. She was chasing Dizzy all over the house and furniture. She jumped on hubby twice and scratched the hell out of his computer screen. The first time he might have been still able to work on it. But after the second time, there was no coming back. We have moved my computer, and he us using it in the evenings. My computer time is usually limited to the morning and afternoon, so it works out well. Although I realize that I just enabled him to continue playing instead of spending time together. *shrug* Can't win them all.

Ug, I need to clean my house! Angel is coming on the 10th, and this place is a pigsty! Hubby promised to do dishes since I was cooking all the time. The kitchen has yet to bear any fruit in that regard. The rest of the house is left up to me. He always freaks out when dealing with my stuff . . . Well, really, something not his own. I also need to get the guest bathroom cleaned up for Angel. Although I have claimed that one as my own. Since Juneau likes to dig through the cat box for snacks, it has been moved to the master bathroom. I cannot stand it! Even kept clean, there is more smell due to the humidity and the smaller space. Also, the guest bathroom has better lighting for make up and such. Needless to say, IT NEEDS CLEANING! I also need o try and organize my make up. For me, it isn't too terrible being all over the counter, but for guests it makes it hard for them to use the faucet and such.

Anyways, Hack/Slash is calling my name. I want to get some more reading done and then convince myself to get up and start working.

Goal for next week: Get back to menu planning, make better food choices, and continue shredding it at the gym.

We got into a car accident this afternoon. We were pulling out o a parking spot on a one-way while someone was turning onto the street. The worst part, they were an elderly person who was also handicapped! I felt terrible. Our back bumper took most of the impact. You can tell we got into an accident, but it doesn't look too bad. The back light cover on the driver-side broke. His car, on the other hand, looks awful! The passenger-side fender was pretty crumpled. The impact caused his car to leak window cleaner. We were afraid that it was something more.

After everything was said and done, the police office didn't cite anyone. He said that it was the other guy's fault, because he was turning onto the one-way while we were already on it. In addition the distance between our parking spot and the corner wasn't enough to really see the other car. Both hubby and other driver said that they didn't see each other, so it really wasn't any one person's fault.

This week as not been the best food week. The timing of the paycheck and the end of the week has really screwed things up. I need to sit down and figure out another menu. I'm going to have to crack the whip tomorrow and make sure that I start thinking about my choices. However, one really positive thing, I have not stopped my weekly exercise! Even though the elliptical was harder this today, everything got off without a hitch.

Well, back to my utter geekiness -- Zombie Strippers. Yes, I am that geeky ^_~

We went out for lunch this afternoon. It was to one of our local pseud-vegetarian bistros. I had a basil, tomato, and cheddar sandwich and corn chips. Usually I eat the whole sandwich, but I was quite happy with half of it. However, I indulged. I had part of a piece of chocolate Bavarian mint cheese cake :9 It was too rich and I was full, so I didn't end up finishing it.

After doing my pilates, I spent most of the day reading! It's been awhile since I've just sat down and read for hours. HaHa, it actually felt really good.

I talked to Bob yesterday. He is still working for the student radio. He says that they still need to fill a lot of time slots, so I asked if I could come back. He was very amenable to the idea. I dropped him a line this afternoon asking if I could do any evening show. When I get a job, that will be the best time. I'm not planning on going back to two shows a week. I'm thinking one time a week for two hours. It will be nice to head back. It gives me something to do. They are planning on getting everything officially scheduled by the 17th. Yay! Sinn Wagon will return!

Wow! Some of the exercises were easier today, but a lot of them got harder. Some of the stability ball stretches were a lot harder this time. I'm not sure why. But, hey, I got it done!

While on the treadmill at the end, I was just losing steam . . . Fast! I was concentrating on finish my fast walk @ 10min, but it was getting harder and harder. During the last few minutes, Lady Gaga Bad Romance came up on my iPod. Whatever people say about her, those songs are high energy. It gave me the last umf to finish.

When I was done, I shimmied into my swimsuit. Being hot and sweaty made the quite a feat! Since I was still over heated, I jumped into the pool. It was nice. I walked around a little bit and started the lazy river. But, being who I am, I was getting self-conscience just being there. It felt as though the lifeguard was watching me the whole time, but, really, I was the only one in the pool, so . . . He was sitting right by the lazy river. I got so uncomfortable that I stopped. Arg! I'm so annoyed at myself. After that, I made my way to the whirlpool! Ahhhhhh . . . that was lovely! The water was the perfect temperature. Sadly, when I got out, I felt more wasted than I usually do. However, it was a nice end to my workout!

I will probably be bad again for lunch. I didn't get my ass together and go shopping earlier in the week; we have no food for lunch. However, I do have stuffed peppers planned for dinner! Yum!

Ug, I need to take a shower, but my energy has disappeared :(

I have my appointment set up with the personal trainer. It is set for 10:30 tomorrow morning. He is a nice guy. I see him every morning I go in. This is an awesome opportunity, but I'm feeling really nervous and self-conscience. When I think about it, I'm not sure. Something about it means that I have to come clean and accept the fact that this is where I am. From a previous post, I said that I never feel fat. It takes seeing myself in the mirror or something else before I feel that way. I already own the truth. I know that I need to be healthy, but . . . I don't know. Keep me in your thoughts, guys! Thanks ^_~

We took Juneau to the park this afternoon. It was a big dog thing down there. We got her chipped. I was afraid it would hurt her, but she was only focused on the food they had. After wards, we got her a cup full of dog ice cream. Man, she really inhaled it! We met another husky owner. She was 2 years-old and as small as Juneau. It was weird. But her colouring was awesome! Juneau has been really good about being around other huskies, but she freaked out with this little girl. Hubby and I think the run-in with the Malamute really set her back on how she interacts with other dogs. She was doing really, really well, but . . . Arg!

Journey group was tonight. Nate brought some elk for kabobs (I don't like wild meat, so . . . Hubby loved it). They made these amazing potatoes on the grill! They were cut fry-style and marinated in olive oil a lots of herbs. Yummy! Due to my wild meat issues, I had to grab dinner on the way home. I'm definitely cracking down on myself tomorrow. I need to start making better decisions on the weekends!

*sigh* I need to head to the store tomorrow for the week. I have a tentative idea of what we're eating, and we don't need to pick up too much. Hubby is making his homemade spaghetti this week. I don't know calorie intake, but it is all from scratch. Nom nom nom!!

Well, I'm being lazy and watching the first disc of Sons of Anarchy.

Bad weekend . . . What can I say?

It was my hubby's company picnic this afternoon. And, I admit it, I munched on the cookies we brought *sheepish grin* One of them was a brownie turned into a cookie! How could you resist that?! Serious yumminess! Nom nom nom!! Tomorrow our Bible study group meets, and that's not gonna be a good eating day. Meh, I'm kind of going with the flow. I really need to crack down on myself on Monday and try to maintain through the next weekend. The 11th is gonna be a bad weekend again, but I still need to try to keep up the momentum.

We had to leave the picnic earl because of Juneau. When we arrived, there were three girl dogs (2 puppies) and they all played. I was sad that Juneau wasn't off-leash, but we didn't want to risk it with traffic and such. Plus, huskies off-leash isn't the smartest idea :P Anyways, they were having tons of fun, running, bounding, playing, etc. Near the food-time, another co-worker brought his Malamute. Supposedly she is bad will all female dogs. She seemed to basically ignore the other dogs. When she came to see Juneau, her posture was aggressive and it scared her! After that, the Malamute ended up attacking the mini Schnauzer. Her owner was able to stop her, but still!! I tried to keep her away from Juneau, but it didn't work. She kept stalking her in a very aggressive way. Poor Juneau hid under the picnic tables she was so terrified. after eating, we left early. That was not a good environment for Juneau. When my hubby told another co-worker why we were leaving, she said that she felt the Malamute was bullying the other dogs.

Either way, when we got home, we all crashed for a nap. She rested most of the way home, and then was more than willing to crash in her crate for a few hours. Before the Malamute came, the picnic was really good.

Tomorrow the town is doing something called The Dog Days of Summer at a local park. We're gonna get Juneau chipped. They are doing it at a low rate through the animal shelter. She should have lots of fun there. This weekend has been a big one for her. But it has been good to get out!

My guilt complex is really trying to get the better of me. Maybe Prozac is helping take off the edge of guilt and anxiety. I really don't want to have that feeling in my head. It is quieter than is used to be. Without counseling and medication, I would be so overrun with guilt and anxiety that I would cease functioning. I'm sitting here drinking my Wild Cherry Pepsi and not fully caring.

This week hasn't not been the best as far as food is concerned. Ask my Peps; gyoza at the sushi place; Taco Bell burritos; ice cream; and ice cold, bottled Coke.

While I was doing my reading this afternoon, and this passage really stuck out to me:

Everyone I've known who lost or maintained weight for the long term as done it on their one. Not with Zone Delivery, not with Pilates -- at least not completely. The long-term weight-loss winner generally makes her own pupu platter of what works. It's usually some cardio plus some stretch and a hike once a week, along with alow-carb diet and daily a treat. Or else it's dance aerobics twice a week and yoga twice a week and a walk with the kids plus a vegetarian diet and a lot of Popsicles. Whatever it is, it's about assessing all the information and making a plan that works for you. -A Fat Girl's Guide to Life

This really spoke to me. I'm not sure why, but I feel as though I'm at least on the right path. While watching my hubby eat sushi, I started thinking about what I accomplished vs. where I've stumbled:

• I've been eating healthier than before
• I've been working at maintaining it for three weeks and have been fairly successful
• For the past 3 weeks, I have kept up with my daily exercise and enjoying my lazy weekends
• I've been at the gym steadily for about 1.5 weeks
• Accomplished 5 continuous minutes on the elliptical machine
• Learned that a weekly menu is better than willy-nilly
• Thinking about why I snack and assessing whether I am hungry or not.
• Finding out that I really CAN do it!

Here is a quote to think about while at the gym:

Overweight people not only have more fast than the slender, they ofter have comparatively more muscle. When you gain weight because of overeating, you put three-quarters of that weight as fat but one quarter of that weight is muscle. Fat people are so cowed into self-loathing that they don't realize the potential they carry. If they choose to exercise their submerged muscle on a regular basis, they'll be able to beat the sprat out of ant thin ones that call them pigs. -Woman: An Intimate Geography

I got out of bed and went over to the rec center. It was a pretty hardcore work out. I managed to stay on the elliptical machine for 5 minutes without stopping! Haha, I told you, elliptical machine, I will conquer you! **shakes fist** I used to love the rowing machine, so I hopped on that with high expectations. LoL, yeah . . . . The way the machine is positioned -- and my cute gym shoes -- it pulls my shoe off! Not very good for a workout. However, I still did well with everything else. Man, I sparkled after I got off of the treadmill -- before heading home. Is that how Stephanie Meyer's vampires sparkle in the day light? Sheeesh, I wish I had that workout stamina, LoL ^_~

Yesterday for dinner, I ate Taco Bell. I was craving it for lunch, but finished off our healthy leftovers. I was still craving it, so we got dinner over there and a movie to watching tonight at Hastings. Yeah, it wasn't the best choice. But, hey, Geneen Roth says to allow yourself to eat what you crave. I didn't overeat, just happily munched ^____^ We're heading out to a local place today. We both forgot to pick up meat for dinner/lunch, so we're going out. Unfortunately, I wouldn't have time to make lunch even if we went to pick up the meat now. It would cut into my hubby's lunch time too much for him to eat. Oh well, better planning next time.

All in all, even though I have slipped a few times, I feel good! I feel awake, empowered, and GOOD!

This is a little TMI, so be warned:
On my mother's side of the family, we have always had really tricky bowels. I can go for weeks without a bowel movement Taking the fiber pills, increasing my fiber intake, drinking prune juice, etc. has never worked. Everything is in working order, the bowels don't want to move. Usually, I have to end up taking a laxative to finally get things out of my system. My mom has struggled with this for a long time, her grandmother did, her aunts, etc., so it is nothing new. Anyways, after starting this adventure, I have not had a issue with my bowels! Yay!! I'm not sure what is doing it. My mom exercises everyday, takes fiber pills, prune juice, etc. (and she is SKINNY), but it never seems to help her stay regular. I wonder why I am starting to. Either way, YAY!!!

On an ending note, here is the playlist I listen to at the rec center. Some of the songs couldn't be found and some of them are only partial. The last version of "I Hate Myself for Loving You" ended up there as a mistake. I'm not sure how to delete things, so . . .

Yesterday was a graphic novel/comic book acquiring day. After getting the first volume of Hack/Slash and the first Dark Ivory comic earlier in the week, I couldn't wait to get the next copies! Our local Hastings carries serial comics now, so I got the first 3 copies of the new Birds of Prey. I ended up with the second volume of Hack/Slash, 2-3 of Dark Ivory (finishing the series), and Birds of Prey (the original series) volume 1!! *squeal*

Today I had to force myself out of bed. I didn't have any motivation to go to the gym Since I couldn't fine my iPod this morning, I said if it wasn't in the car, I wouldn't go. God has other plans. It was waiting for me in the car. Even though I didn't want to go, I think this was the best workout since I started. It feels as though I pushed myself more. Haha, I even feel MORE tired that I usually do! I really, really wish my tattoo was healed, so I could sit in the whirl pool. It is open, and it is calling me!

I've already started week 3. This week I am going to concentrate on making better choices. If I'm hungry and craving something, I can have it in moderation. If I give my body what it wants, I won't be craving in when I'm not hungry. Less chance of slippage/overeating.

I need to spend today getting laundry done. I would rather take a nap. With no job, I guess I have the afternoon open.

Weigh-in today. I didn't lose any weight, but I didn't gain any either. I just maintained. I was hoping to see some pounds fall away, but, really, this isn't bad. I need to keep reminding myself that this is not about weight loss. Anything I lose is an added bonus, but it's not the focus.

This weekend was not the greatest as far as food goes. Following the direction of Geneen Roth, I had pizza for dinner on Friday. I have been CRAVING it since this thing started. I didn't over eat. We also got Cinnistix, and I LOVE those things. Keeping that in mind, I ate less pizza so I could focus on the sugar. Small victories? I don't know. Anyways, I made a really good lunch yesterday. It was low calorie, and freakin' YUMMY. Nom nom nom! But we went to a movie in the afternoon, and I indulged in dippin' dots and Coke. We hardly ever go to the movie, so I kind of justified it *sheepish grin* And this afternoon we're going out to lunch with Ninja and his sister. The restaurant has my favorite white pizza . . . It has veggies on it!! Haha, I didn't even mention our Sunday tradition -- if we end up going to church. Bagels and coffee!! Arg!

One way or another, I'll survive the rest of the weekend, and make sure to crack down tomorrow. I already have the menu planned, and the food bought. We did find a few little treasures at the store: More ALMONDS! Okay, to be specific, we found different almond flavors. We like the Blue Diamond almonds because of the neat flavors. Hey, I have to eat 28+ almonds to get to 170 calories. That's a LOT of almonds!

Tomorrow I head back to the rec center. I've been dropping the pilates and yoga for the rec center. I need to find a way to work it back in, but I am just so wasted after plugging away for an for an hour.

*sigh* I hear Vash hissing at Juneau. Meaning, she is disturbing them while they are eating (behind a locked door), and Vash is pissed. I better go take care of it and jump into the shower. I'm trying to not think of this weekend as failure, just a learning experience.

I was just messing around on the 'net reading *BitchCakes*, and decided to take a look at Zumba on YouTube. It looks awesome! I thought about buying one of the DVDs when I bought the DVD to Punk Rope, but THEY HAVE A CLASS HERE!! Even though this is a university town, we're still pretty backwater on a lot of things. However, they have ZUMBA classes every Tuesday evening from 5:30 - 6:30. Since I don't like trying things new by myself, I talked my husband into going with me. He is taking ballet classes from the local dance center, so I thought he might be willing to try. If not, I might be able to convince Ninja to come . . . . If he has not dance classes on Tuesday. (That boy dances like a MADMAN!) I is so pumped ^______^

In other news, I ended up eating Toxic Smell for lunch (and drinking wild cherry Pepsi as I type). After coming home from the gym, I crashed on the couch and slept for nearly 3 hours!!! Is that normal? (side note, I didn't get to sleep until after midnight) By the time I had to pick hubby up, there was no time to make the patties and cook them for 20min. He had to get back to work. I'm going to make them for dinner tonight. We were planning on grabbing something for lunch tomorrow because of our psych appointment, but I am cracking down and making myself eat the leftovers of the patties. On Friday, he desperately wants to go to lunch at the local vegetarian place. I'm not sure what they are like as far as calorie intake, but everything is freshly made. That's gotta be better than your typical restaurant.

I keep freaking out and feeling guilty, but I keep reminding myself that this isn't a diet. It is about finding balance in the way I eat. If we eat out occasionally and I limit my soda intake to those times, I'm still eating well. Plus, continuing the exercise will only help.

Haha, I definitely need to get in shape! The elliptical machine proved that this morning. After battling with the programs on it for while, I decided that I would warm up on the stationary bike. In that way, my legs are powerful, so I usually avoid it for other leg exercises. Anyways, in about 15min I went 7mi on the bike. Sadly, I had to take several breaks because my foot was trying to cramp or something in the middle. I needed to stop many times to stretch it out. I tried different leg pressure, foot placement on the peddle, etc. *shrug* It sucked, but pumping out 7mi in 15min ROCKS!! After that, I tried the elliptical machine again . . . You had to start using the machine before the program/controls would turn on. Trying to move the "peddles" and focus on the controls make is very hard NOT to throw yourself off! It was a struggle trying to get it to work. After that, maybe 5min!!!! Only 5min!! Epic fail :( I finished my hour on the treadmill doing the cardio program.

All in all, it was all good. I'm definitely going back tomorrow. I forgot to ask about the personal trainer, so I'll get that done when I head back in. I'm excited, but kind of nervous about it! I'm very out of shape and I have sports induced asthma (it is not limited to sports), and that makes everything worse. The personal trainer should know how to work around those two things.

Once my ink heals and the whirl pool is open, my gym visits will end there . . . Awwwww . . . So far, even though I was kind of anxious about going by myself, everything turned out pretty well! Me excited about the gym!

I just read Kendra's post, and it made be start to lament the process of eventual weight loss (remember, I'm not trying to have a goal of overall weight loss). I don't want to miss my boobs! They are my one vanity -- aside from my kickin' calves!! Even though shopping for bras is an issue and I end up spending a lot, I still love them! Damn, I fill out a shirt well! Before way too much weight found itself on my body, I had to wear a size 22 just because of my babies :P

Yes, I am loath to admit, they are rather saggy-ish. But I figure that is due to their size. *shrug* I don't want them to end up looking deflated and saggy! *cry* I'm hoping I'm still young enough that the elasticity of my skin has not gone. Please, God, let me keep my rack intact!

Moment of Truth: I had Little Caesar's for dinner and a nice tall glass of wild cherry Pepsi. After yoga, I finished some leftovers from last night's dinner (I still have another 4 to fry up for lunch tomorrow). In addition, I also worked doing cleaning at my parents' house. It was a slip, but it's not happening all the time.

In Women, Food and God, Roth talks about eating what you want. But where is the balance? What if I am always craving Twix or Reese's Cups? It is not good to eat due to boredom, when you're not hungry, etc., but where is the line? *shrug* I'm still trying to figure this thing out . . .

Due to wake-up set backs, I didn't get out to the rec center this morning. I'm planning on pumping a kick-ass playlists tonight in anticipation of going tomorrow morning! I'll double check about the personal trainer. So pumped!!

Plan: Get up early enough to get the cats fed, take my hubby to work, and hit the rec center! Cardio room, here I come! LMAO, I should make sure to turn on out hot tub tonight with plans to soak away my stiffness. Ahhhhh, hooooot tuuuuub. Kind of like zombies and braiiiiiiiiins ^_~

Things have not gone according to plan this weekend. And, honestly, I'm having a hard time caring. We have a friend over playing Super Mario Wii, and it's good to be around people. I'm to much of a recluse :P

I got a late start this morning, which means a late breakfast. After going to the store, I finally have real milk to enjoy with cheerios. That milk-coloured water really was not milk! Around 1-2ish, I ate two servings of enchiladas. Damn, those things are good! It was hard to say "no." And, I hate to admit, but I broke down and drank a Coke. Yes, I know . . . Ice cold Coke. Hard to say "no" to one. However, I have some low calorie stroganoff (sp) cooking in the crock pot. It smells super yummy! Nom nom nom!

Well, tomorrow is a new week. Even though I've had some slippage, this week has not been very hard. Yeah, I crave stuff and I snake too much, but it don't feel as though I am being deprived. I'm ecstatic that things are coming so well. On top of that, I've been on top of my weekly exercise. If I'm honestly with myself and put down feelings of guilt, this week has been pretty successful! Going into next week, I am super pumped and encouraged! This blog has really been beneficial. Also, all of you ladies (and a couple guys ^_~) have really encouraged me! It is so empowering to see success stories! It is obtainable, and I'm worth it.

Tomorrow previous week in review, status of previous week's goals, and goals for the new week.